I might have won £2.50 on last night's Euro-Millions but the realisation of me winning the BIG time is impossible. It seems that I am ignoring the TRUTH, in the fact that I will make my money the old fashioned way instead of winning it the easy way - by my own doing.
Winning the Lottery through 'Good Fortune and Good Luck' is OK. I could easily give my life for pleasure if I came into a few million however, I would eventually become bored because I would be doing stuff and not having anything to show for it - except photos and memories.
I don't knock that because if I could see the world with what I had won it would take the rest of my life. I have always said, that if I saw the world I would write about it and that I would spend the rest of my life travelling. That to me would be something. To be free and on the road, to experience new places and meet different people, would truly be something to marvel and behold but I have come to the logical conclusion. I am putting off what I should be doing more of - WRITING.
Sarah said to me the other day that "It's all part of the learning experience!" My question being that I always get stuck on dialogue and structure because I don't think of dialogue as I do when I am having a normal conversation with someone, I write differently?
Don't ask me why that is, it just is. So that's why I am a little behind on my target. That and the fact that I haven't properly structured out my plots, but that's just part of the learning curve when you start out as a writer. I tend to write from the very beginning and not backwards, like some writers do. I find that working from start to finish with an idea allows me to 'walk the path'. I usually have "no idea how the ending will turn out" because I have just come up with the initial idea.
But I am "back on track" now. It's just a matter of knowing what to do as a writer. Knowing 'how to structure' a script or a novel in a way where it makes sense is all part of being a proper writer. I could go and write something that doesn't make sense or is just cobbled together, but that would lose many people when they come read it.
NO! I would rather take a 'bit longer' so I get it right. I want to give up the day job and do something that I can appreciate, something that I have done which will enrich my life and not do something that someone else wants me to do.
I guess that I need to find that equal balance, between work / home and writing, so I can use my time more effectively. Because right now I can only write when I am 'in that moment'. Most of the time I struggle to put pen to paper but I guess that's just part of the process... ?
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